I Promise.

Christmas break so far is absolutly amazing. I've had the best two days so far that I've had in a really long time. On Friday night Zach and I went to Mr. Allen's Christmas party, just like we do every year. Of course we had fun spending time with all of his friends, laughing and joking around. For some reason being around all of those people just makes me feel better about my relationship with Zach. It makes me see how close we really are and that we are ment to be together. Well anyways, we left Mr. Allen's and we drove back to my house to get his truck and all my stuff. So after we got everything together we headed back to his house because we were going duck hunting! While he was driving back to his house, he said he needed gas and pulled off at the shell station and parked in front the gas pump. He reached in his center colsole to grab his wallet, I thought. Then he pulled this diamond ring out and he told me what each of the diamonds stood for and how he promised to be there and love me forever. I'm not much for crying, but I really wanted to cry like a baby then and there. For some reason after that, I love him more than ever. We are closer and get along better than ever. And as for Christmas day, hello to a whole year and a half together. <3

It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year!

I absolutly love Christmas time! It is most definitely the best time of the year. I love kicking back on the couch right beside the fireplace snuggled up in my blanket watching Christmas movies! I really hate the cold weather but getting to light the fireplace, it's all worth it. It's just something about it. The smell of the logs and your house being at that perfect temperature, so cozy! Christmas time also means, snowboarding! I love, love, love snowboarding. Last year my family and I went to Virginia and we had a blast. Yes, it was -4 degrees outside but it was so worth it. Not only did we have fun on the mountain, but going back to the cabin was so much fun. Daddy and Robert were doing donuts and sliding all around on the ice in the middle of the State Park. I thought for sure either someone was going to crash or someone was going to jail, but we're all still alive. So, besides the movies and mountains, I'd have to say the best part is being with family. I love shopping for gifts for everyone. I love seeing the looks on everyones faces when they get exactly what they want. Also, just getting to see some of the relatives you normally wouldn't get to see. Even though some of my family is royaly screwed up.. You still have to love them. Seriously though, last Easter...(we wont say any names), but someone decided to throw a bowl across the room, and not only that but someone else got jabbed in the eyeball. You can't pick your family... I guess you just have to deal with the cards you've been dealt.

It's Coming To An End

Time is flying by so fast. It's hard to believe that we are all Seniors this year, and we'll be moving off to college in just a few short months. It seems like just the other day I was middle school, when I had no worries at all. Now it's all different. Now I have so much pressure on me, Mom and Dad constantly talking about grades and college, it's so overwhelming! I can't believe in just a few short months I'll be living all alone and having to take care of myself. I don't even know how to cook, what in the world am I supposed to do without Mommy and Daddy? It's so scary. I wish everything would slow down just a little and give me time to get myself together. It's such a huge step moving out and being on my own. I'm terrified of the fact that I'm going to be 2 hours away from my parents. I don't even really like staying at peoples houses because I prefer my own bed and being where I'm comfortable. Don't get me wrong, I'm super excited about going off to college, and of course playing softball in college, I just know i'm going to miss the family. Not only that, but I'm scared about leaving Zach. I love that boy with all my heart but i'm worried about us. He will be at home going to USC and I'll be almost to Georgia. We've been together for a year and a half, and things are absolutly amazing; but the long distance thing sucks. He's always been there and anytime I ever need him, he's just a phone call away. It's not going to be that easy anymore... Hopefully things will work out in the end, and maybe I'll be a big girl and love being on my own. Doubtful...

Other things may change us, but we start and end with family.

I guess I never realized how lucky I am to have a family that loves me. I probably have the best parents anyone could ask for. I have people all around me that care about me and would do just about anything in the world for me. Not only do I have my family that I trust with all my heart, I have Zach's. I love his parents so much, they really are my home away from home. I think I realized that this Thanksgiving. When I walk in the door with Zach they all hug me and say how happy they are to see me again. It feels so good to be accepted. I have no clue what in the world I would do if Zach's parents didn't like me. His Dad and step mom, Tammy, really are my second parents. I spend so much time with them and I feel so comfortable over there. You know how most of the time you don't speak much to your boyfriend's parents? You just kind of lay low and don't say a whole lot? Its the complete opposite. I talk to Tammy and Ricky about everything, we joke and laugh and have a great time. Even Zach's hunting friends are like family to me. Allen Sikes is also like another Dad. I was talking to him on the phone one night and when we were hanging up he said "love you". And like always I said, "Love you too Mr. Allen". When my mom asked me if he was drunk, and I told her "no, he always tells me he loves me"?.. I realized it was abnormal to fit in so well. Having people that support and allow you to date makes the relationship so much easier. They are probably a big chunk of the reason me and Zach get along so well :)

Live For You

 Well, everyone else is doing this blog thing so I figured I'd give it a shot. I'm not much for really expressing my feelings and telling people whats really going on, so I guess we'll see how this goes. I very rarely open up to anyone, and I sure don't like to sit there and talk about my problems. I really think crying infront of people makes you look like the biggest wimp in the world, I just don't do it, well I don't try to. I don't really get upset that often, I really don't have a reason to. I have a great life and I'm pretty much always happy. I hear people talking about how bad their days are and how they just cant wait to get away. I don't see it. Maybe i'm missing something here? Or maybe people are just too sensitive. Why let one persons action or comment ruin your day? WHO CARES! My mom tells me this all the time, (I'm starting to see that this lady is right more and more), if your happy with yourself and you like who you are, who cares what other people think. Live for yourself, not someone else. Be happy and don't let anyone else bring you down. Keep your head high, and always have self confidence. Just Be Happy!